Thursday, January 27, 2022

On Being One

The other morning I spotted a flutter of wings high in the huge tulip tree just outside my property line. Happened not to be wearing my glasses, but binoculars were an easy grab: two Red-shouldered hawks not three feet apart on a large limb.

I believe--don't know for sure--they are the mating pair that have produced chicks here the past 5 seasons. The incubation period lasts around 5 weeks give or take a few days, the nestling stage 6, maybe 7 weeks. About half of young birds are expected to survive their first year. To live 10 years, for a hawk is a good run.

My youngest neighbor now totters to a finish line of sorts, his first birthday. He is one. Somehow saying 'one' to signify a lifespan doesn't seem real. In sum, to be a one-year-old.

As I measure time--or better, experience--his life is one trip around the sun. Not that he could comprehend such a thought. Of course. But 584 million miles traveled, now that is something remarkable. I guess my 40+ trillion is something to note as well.

By the way, the recently launched Webb telescope is not quite a million miles out there. Mere child's play.

My little neighbor has lived a full seasonal rotation, again not much aware of a span much important to me. I live Housman's "fifty springs" more deeply now as I think to have, what, 15 or 20 to come? Can't know for sure.

Rather than one, a heftier sounding number, the youngster's 52 weeks. My 3556, a life lived, so to speak. I am reminded of Oliver Burkeman's approximation: "Certainly you may get lucky: make it to ninety, and you'll have had 4700 weeks". Eighty gets you 4160. Come on 90.

As for the little guy next door, he would see his 90th in 2111. Twenty-one-eleven. Right now, he is one. So it begins. One. 



 


Monday, January 24, 2022

Ullie Howe's Goat (F)

My father trudged up from the dock. He paused and glared at me. “Hey, get the damn .22 and find and shoot that damn goat. Or whatever it is.”

I stood up. “Yes, sir.”

That damn goat.

Kid brother Tim came home crying last night. Same story told by others. He was walking the shortcut between the sound and Highway 17 at dusk.

Aunt Grace put down her teacup. “Told y’all not to be in the Quarters after sundown. How many times?”

Old goat, four-inch fangs and red eyes blazing, coming out of the scrub. Tim sobbed, “Bloody head, chewing something.”

Momma said, “Hush. That isn’t Ullie’s goat. And, she’s dead nearly twenty years.”

The shortcut, hard pack sand, runs a mile due west past the Quarters, the Old Belleview Church, the cemetery. The shell mound. Glistens under the full moon overhead, pine stands now twice thinned, long shadows.

I looked at my best friend, Wallace, still sitting on the picnic table. “Wall, you coming?”

“I don’t know.”

“Won’t be dark for two hours.”

“I know.”

“Well, I gotta go. Going?”

He shrugged. “Okay.”

“Okay, then. I’ll get the gun.”

“That goat rises from Ullie’s grave,” Aunt Grace said. “We all seen it.”

Momma stopped kneading a blob of dough. “You never saw it.”

“Did so. It was half moon and Gilbert and I were walking by and first the eyes, bright red, and then we could see it standing on top of Ullie’s grave. Like it came out of nowhere.”

“Hush.”

“Four, five feet tall. Pawed the ground. Oh, those eyes. Devil eyes.”

“Grace, hush!”

“Preacher Frank saw it. Twice. First time, he preached about it the next Sunday. Bride of the Beast. The coming of the Great Fire.”

Tim started sobbing again. “I don’t want to die.”

“Timothy! You aren’t going to die. At least not for a long time.”

When I came back to the yard, Wallace was standing, cap in hand.

“What?”

“Nothing. Just thinking.”

“You not going with me?”

“I’m going.”

Even my father admitted squirrels and birds were never seen around the cemetery, and he had lived in our house his entire life.

“Some places are like that,” he said. We were walking back from Ernie’s Bait Shop one Saturday. “No real reason. Just different somehow.” As we passed the cemetery, he took off his cap. “Folks deserve respect.” I took off my cap.

Uncle Gil when he was alive always walked the other side of the road passing the Quarters. “Haints, for sure, got to be, for the crimes, you know.” Aunt Grace would nod. “Uh-huh, uh-huh. Plenty folks here seen them. Poor souls.”

Wall and I followed the road for about a quarter mile until we got to the shortcut. The winter sun was still above the tall pines. A light sea breeze, enough twitch smaller branches. “What if we don’t see a goat?”

“What goat?” I rested the .22 on my left shoulder.

“Any goat. That goat.”

“Well, I don’t want to shoot someone’s goat that maybe got loose.”

“Maybe there’s no goat.”

“Well, Timmy, seemed pretty sure. He saw something I guess. We’ll just go look around.”

“You believe the stories?”

“I don’t know. Not really. But I can’t say for sure. You coming?”

We could see the church from the junction where we stood. I kept the gun on my shoulder.

Ahead, about a hundred yards in, a darkish lump at the side of the road.

“Possum?”

“Yep, possum.”

“It dead?”

“Probably.” We approached it. I poked it with the end of the barrel. “Roll it over.” No bite marks. Nothing. Just a dead possum.

A few minutes later we stood in front of the abandoned church.

“Nobody here.”

“Now that’s funny.” I held the rifle in front of me. “I’m going to the grave.”

Wall tilted his head. “Really?”

I walked over to the gate—a shadow, something, further down the road scampered from the woods into the Quarters.

“See that?” Wall stepped back.

“I saw it. Not a damn goat.”

“No, not a damn goat. Dog maybe.”

“Not a dog. Keep watch. I’m going in.”

Ullie Howe’s grave was only 40 feet or so from the gate. The marker a simple tablet, the grass sparse, and a small garland of flowers withered.

I looked back at Wall. “Anything?”

“Nope. Anything there?”

“No, just a grave, some old flowers.”

I rejoined him. “Want to walk the Quarters?”

“I need to get home for supper.”

“Okay. Me, too, I guess.”

“What was that, you know, down the road?”

“I’m thinking a coyote, not Ullie’s damn goat.”

“Yep, not that damn goat.”

Lyman 2022 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Thursday, January 20, 2022

An Index (8)

Looking for room to spread your wings? Or more neighbors? 

State
federal district
or territory
Least densely populated countyPopulation densityMost densely populated countyPopulation density
 AlabamaWilcox County13.13/sq mi (5.07/km2)Jefferson County592.53/sq mi (228.78/km2)
 AlaskaYukon-Koyukuk Census Area0.03/sq mi (0.012/km2)Anchorage Municipality171.19/sq mi (66.10/km2)
 American SamoaRose Atoll [note 13]0.00/sq mi (0/km2)Western District1,139.00/sq mi (439.77/km2)
 ArizonaLa Paz County4.55/sq mi (1.76/km2)Maricopa County414.89/sq mi (160.19/km2)
 ArkansasCalhoun County8.53/sq mi (3.29/km2)Pulaski County503.77/sq mi (194.51/km2)
 CaliforniaAlpine County1.59/sq mi (0.61/km2)San Francisco County17,179.15/sq mi (6,632.91/km2)
 ColoradoHinsdale County0.75/sq mi (0.29/km2)Denver County3,922.59/sq mi (1,514.52/km2)
 ConnecticutLitchfield County206.31/sq mi (79.66/km2)Fairfield County1,467.18/sq mi (566.48/km2)
 DelawareSussex County210.60/sq mi (81.31/km2)New Castle County1,263.18/sq mi (487.72/km2)
 District of ColumbiaDistrict of Columbia9,857.20/sq mi (3,805.89/km2)District of Columbia9,857.20/sq mi (3,805.89/km2)
 FloridaLiberty County10.01/sq mi (3.86/km2)Pinellas County3,347.50/sq mi (1,292.48/km2)
Georgia (U.S. state) GeorgiaClinch County8.49/sq mi (3.28/km2)DeKalb County2,585.72/sq mi (998.35/km2)
 GuamGuam759.60/sq mi (293.28/km2)Guam759.60/sq mi (293.28/km2)
 HawaiiKalawao County7.50/sq mi (2.90/km2)Honolulu County1,586.71/sq mi (612.63/km2)
 IdahoClark County0.55/sq mi (0.21/km2)Ada County372.76/sq mi (143.92/km2)
 IllinoisPope County12.12/sq mi (4.68/km2)Cook County5,495.11/sq mi (2,121.67/km2)
 IndianaBenton County21.78/sq mi (8.41/km2)Marion County2,279.57/sq mi (880.15/km2)
 IowaAdams County9.51/sq mi (3.67/km2)Polk County750.51/sq mi (289.77/km2)
 KansasGreeley County1.60/sq mi (0.62/km2)Johnson County1,149.57/sq mi (443.85/km2)
 KentuckyHickman County20.23/sq mi (7.81/km2)Jefferson County1,948.11/sq mi (752.17/km2)
 LouisianaCameron Parish5.32/sq mi (2.05/km2)Orleans Parish2,029.41/sq mi (783.56/km2)
 MainePiscataquis County4.42/sq mi (1.71/km2)Cumberland County337.23/sq mi (130.21/km2)
 MarylandGarrett County46.51/sq mi (17.96/km2)City of Baltimore7,671.51/sq mi (2,961.99/km2)
 MassachusettsFranklin County102.05/sq mi (39.40/km2)Suffolk County12,416.78/sq mi (4,794.15/km2)
 MichiganKeweenaw County3.99/sq mi (1.54/km2)Wayne County2,974.42/sq mi (1,148.43/km2)
 MinnesotaLake of the Woods County3.11/sq mi (1.20/km2)Ramsey County3,341.64/sq mi (1,290.21/km2)
 MississippiIssaquena County3.40/sq mi (1.31/km2)DeSoto County338.66/sq mi (130.76/km2)
 MissouriWorth County8.14/sq mi (3.14/km2)City of St. Louis5,157.48/sq mi (1,991.31/km2)
 MontanaGarfield County0.25/sq mi (0.097/km2)Yellowstone County56.19/sq mi (21.70/km2)
 NebraskaMcPherson County0.63/sq mi (0.24/km2)Douglas County1,574.37/sq mi (607.87/km2)
 NevadaEsmeralda County0.21/sq mi (0.081/km2)Carson City382.09/sq mi (147.53/km2)
 New HampshireCoos County18.41/sq mi (7.11/km2)Hillsborough County457.37/sq mi (176.59/km2)
 New JerseySalem County199.10/sq mi (76.87/km2)Hudson County13,731.61/sq mi (5,301.80/km2)
 New MexicoHarding County0.32/sq mi (0.12/km2)Bernalillo County570.76/sq mi (220.37/km2)
 New YorkHamilton County2.81/sq mi (1.08/km2)New York County69,468.42/sq mi (26,821.91/km2)
 North CarolinaHyde County9.48/sq mi (3.66/km2)Mecklenburg County1,755.54/sq mi (677.82/km2)
 North DakotaBillings County0.68/sq mi (0.26/km2)Cass County84.86/sq mi (32.76/km2)
 Northern Mariana IslandsNorthern Islands Municipality [note 14]0.00/sq mi (0/km2)Saipan Municipality1,050.80/sq mi (405.72/km2)
 OhioMonroe County32.12/sq mi (12.40/km2)Cuyahoga County2,799.95/sq mi (1,081.07/km2)
 OklahomaCimarron County1.34/sq mi (0.52/km2)Tulsa County1,058.14/sq mi (408.55/km2)
 OregonHarney County0.73/sq mi (0.28/km2)Multnomah County1,704.93/sq mi (658.28/km2)
 PennsylvaniaCameron County12.83/sq mi (4.95/km2)Philadelphia County11,379.49/sq mi (4,393.65/km2)
 Puerto RicoCulebra Municipality156.40/sq mi (60.39/km2)San Juan Municipality8,262.30/sq mi (3,190.09/km2)
 Rhode IslandWashington County385.67/sq mi (148.91/km2)Bristol County2,064.00/sq mi (796.91/km2)
 South CarolinaAllendale County25.53/sq mi (9.86/km2)Greenville County574.72/sq mi (221.90/km2)
 South DakotaHarding County0.47/sq mi (0.18/km2)Minnehaha County209.95/sq mi (81.06/km2)
 TennesseePerry County19.08/sq mi (7.37/km2)Davidson County1,243.33/sq mi (480.05/km2)
 TexasLoving County0.12/sq mi (0.046/km2)Dallas County2,718.00/sq mi (1,049.43/km2)
United States U.S. Minor Outlying Islands6 entities [note 15]0.00/sq mi (0/km2)Wake Island39.80/sq mi (15.37/km2)
United States Virgin Islands Virgin Islands (U.S.)Saint John Island211.80/sq mi (81.78/km2)Saint Thomas Island1,649.10/sq mi (636.72/km2)
 UtahGarfield County0.99/sq mi (0.38/km2)Salt Lake County1,387.14/sq mi (535.58/km2)
 VermontEssex County9.50/sq mi (3.67/km2)Chittenden County291.74/sq mi (112.64/km2)
 VirginiaHighland County5.59/sq mi (2.16/km2)Alexandria City9,314.30/sq mi (3,596.27/km2)
 WashingtonGarfield County3.18/sq mi (1.23/km2)King County912.87/sq mi (352.46/km2)
 West VirginiaPocahontas County9.27/sq mi (3.58/km2)Ohio County419.98/sq mi (162.16/km2)
 WisconsinIron County7.80/sq mi (3.01/km2)Milwaukee County3,925.95/sq mi (1,515.82/km2)
 WyomingNiobrara County0.94/sq mi (0.36/km2)Laramie County34.15/sq mi (13.19/km2)